Zac Zen: The feeling is back....

The feeling is back.... The feeling that i had not feel it for long time is back.... Endless sleep...no appetite and pondering...But this time round is worst....You cant get to see the person and might gone forever even without you knowing....This second endless night....Sometime you just want to turn back the time to change the things just to make it right but it is not impossible...Leaving me so confused...either to be selfish or just wanna make your lover happy...sacrife your love for your love ones... I wish i hope and expect to received the best but what if it shattered...This time round gonna be a long healing process...You will only learn to appreciate things after the person gone..Is this is love?To make sacrifices...Only god know how i feel...Expectation and love that i didnt give and this is what i should bear......Shall i fight or shall i keep in silence...tell me tell me!!! I cant give the person wants but i love the person.But does the person still love me. Why is the government have some restriction? But there is other solution. Why i made up to get back to school..if i work is it going to be diffrent? Have make it for one year so y cant go on for just another year? oh oh my thousand of questions are settling in my mind. Does the person leaving me for someone or i am damn lousy lover...?? Is this what you call love that hurt you in the end?? Admitting to tarnish my own love and is it too late to regret?

Lets finish up the wonderful story of Jokjak....(Volcano Merapi and The Ramayana Play)

I guess i just leave with the pic to tell the story....

Behind this mountain is Merapi...Not clear cause it is cloudy.Heard from the local it going to erupt soon.

Ramayana play is at Parawisata.Include show and dinner...