EMO....

Hi...everyonez zacky whacky is back...doing my SIP now. Kinda confused what doing for SIP all i do is sleep,eat,play and do a little bit for the project.Slack all the way... Thanks to gino that there progression on our project.
Starting of SIP also meaning starting of my part time job.Good pay great working friends but very tiring for me... i so stress out.A new life for me???no more lepakz type??Making money is a benefit but to please someone should return some appreciation but i don feel that i get it. Far to see..talk hardly... I feel very mind and emotional toturing....why cant someone please me...treat me like before...make me comfort..weekdays school and work... week ends help my parents and this will go on for 19 weeks...i try to adapt but i feel like breaking down..My bestfriend's dad had just passed away and yet i had didnt make the effort to meet her. Feel so bad... i think i am going mad...want to be happy but just couldnt reach there. Feel like a durian...strong and sharp on the outside but soft in the inside....Pls let this pass quickly.I still feel the impact or even worse i feel like no one. I really must tell myself that i can do it and pass thru this 19 weeks...work hard and no matter the result is i still and will keep fighting...Pls make me happy and start to appreciate me... before it all gone...i dont want but how long can a candle last?? Plz...................................................................................................