EMO....

Hi...everyonez zacky whacky is back...doing my SIP now. Kinda confused what doing for SIP all i do is sleep,eat,play and do a little bit for the project.Slack all the way... Thanks to gino that there progression on our project.
Starting of SIP also meaning starting of my part time job.Good pay great working friends but very tiring for me... i so stress out.A new life for me???no more lepakz type??Making money is a benefit but to please someone should return some appreciation but i don feel that i get it. Far to see..talk hardly... I feel very mind and emotional toturing....why cant someone please me...treat me like before...make me comfort..weekdays school and work... week ends help my parents and this will go on for 19 weeks...i try to adapt but i feel like breaking down..My bestfriend's dad had just passed away and yet i had didnt make the effort to meet her. Feel so bad... i think i am going mad...want to be happy but just couldnt reach there. Feel like a durian...strong and sharp on the outside but soft in the inside....Pls let this pass quickly.I still feel the impact or even worse i feel like no one. I really must tell myself that i can do it and pass thru this 19 weeks...work hard and no matter the result is i still and will keep fighting...Pls make me happy and start to appreciate me... before it all gone...i dont want but how long can a candle last?? Plz...................................................................................................

The feeling is back....

The feeling is back.... The feeling that i had not feel it for long time is back.... Endless sleep...no appetite and pondering...But this time round is worst....You cant get to see the person and might gone forever even without you knowing....This second endless night....Sometime you just want to turn back the time to change the things just to make it right but it is not impossible...Leaving me so confused...either to be selfish or just wanna make your lover happy...sacrife your love for your love ones... I wish i hope and expect to received the best but what if it shattered...This time round gonna be a long healing process...You will only learn to appreciate things after the person gone..Is this is love?To make sacrifices...Only god know how i feel...Expectation and love that i didnt give and this is what i should bear......Shall i fight or shall i keep in silence...tell me tell me!!! I cant give the person wants but i love the person.But does the person still love me. Why is the government have some restriction? But there is other solution. Why i made up to get back to school..if i work is it going to be diffrent? Have make it for one year so y cant go on for just another year? oh oh my thousand of questions are settling in my mind. Does the person leaving me for someone or i am damn lousy lover...?? Is this what you call love that hurt you in the end?? Admitting to tarnish my own love and is it too late to regret?


Lets finish up the wonderful story of Jokjak....(Volcano Merapi and The Ramayana Play)

I guess i just leave with the pic to tell the story....

Behind this mountain is Merapi...Not clear cause it is cloudy.Heard from the local it going to erupt soon.

Ramayana play is at Parawisata.Include show and dinner...
Javanese band to entertain us during dinner..
The show has started
Sam,I, japanese couple and the main cast
The future talent

Hope i can continue my travelling story next time...

Yogjakarta 3

Finally, my project are done my exam are over but left with my results...Scary and more scary is that i doubt i do good this time...Sigh. Crap to 'Wireless'! Suck to Rosw! Result is in two week time.What i gonna do during my holiday.Hmmm...All i can say it is plan, i guess.... And i guess another last trip to Indonesia before moving to my next country..... Hong Kong maybe heheheh... Let's put all of that aside and try to finish up my JOkjak story

Jojak

Oh gosh i like almost forgot what i did there....Let's see....Ok now i know....Let's start with Prabanam Temple

This place has a myth to it. As far as what i had learned there, a warrior really wanted to marry this princess and the condition was that this warrior had to built 1000 temples within a fortnite. As he knows that is impossible, he got helped from suprenatural genie to build it for him. As the princess can see that his plans worked. She summon something which can't remeber to distract his worked. Then he really got angry and cursed in to this stone.

More of the pictures i took of the place

Another historic temple is Borubudur...It is the largest Buddha Stuppa in the world...

People are rushing up the to the top....

Parts of The Borubudur

The craving on the bricks....which tells the story

The abstract photo

The nice contrast

Buddha seat over the wall???

This is a shelter made to protect the real buddha statue inside. Bandits like to steal it away and sell it for big money. Ppl believe that by touching the buddha statue, it may brings good luck.

Enough for now...will bring you the last episod of this trip next time....

Stress

Hello...wah its been a long time i update my blog.....Been very very busy with project, work, studying for tests and etc etc...Recently my friend had just pass away due to work...He is a civil defence officer and got killed on a road accident when he got a urgent called. Al-fateha to Sheik Amran. He is very quiet and always keep to himself.Have a fun memory with him. Well i guess life is too short to think what you gonna do in the future. Sigh....this week i am so tense with my project really tense...but some ppl just don think i am.PPL think i am enjoying my life well i wish i would. I got quarrel with my friend just a stupid misunderstanding.And with my sister over a stupid thoughts.Well i just tell myself... think what they like, i just have to many burden to think off... Studying is diffrent from work...Futuremore my school semester is damn too fast...i had to hand in 7 project and having 5 examination subject in hand....the most chialat semester in Temasek Poly. The school wanna have to follow their own schedule and leaving us suffer.Wish that i can quit but kinda of wasted and unlike me to quit half way. Must chiong ah.... How i wish ppl can just understand me.....I may look happy from outside but inside only god knows how i feel. Well chinese new year is around the corner and i planned to stay home and study. i aim to score high for my exam so my GPA can rise back......Hopefully! Happy chinese new year to my chinese friends and Happy holiday to the others....

Yogjarkarta 2

Wah its been long time i had written a blog!...Before i continue my story, i will like to pay tribute to my uncle-in-law(my aunt's husband ) who just past away in a work accident last Sat (3 december2005) . He was a truck driver and is to be said a sobber worker who had just attended a wedding dinner came to work.Due to his carelessness or shall i said his irresponsible- damn him to hell had cause a life. Pity my aunt.... Their wedding day with my family-11 years ago...

Oh yah my dad had a bike accident a week before- may ALLAH protect him.

Alrite let put the sadness behind and life must continue (althought its to swallow the pain may take forever)

Jokjak

Ok where was i ....oh yah the history in jokjak.

Kraton(Palace)
Its an old palace where the king had the ceremony there...It is still use for coronation.

but all i can say this place is suprising nothing just that only...but near to it is called TamanSari or Water palace cause it to be said the king travel for one place to another by a small boat.

part of water palacewat you pointing at?nice angle

let say it's raining or escaping away from enemy ,the king had under tunnel led to another palace.

and the tunnel also led to a underground mosque. This is nice. Cause they had two floors.Upper for mens and lower for ladies or vice versa (can't remeber- heheh never listen to may tour guide properly) and under great influence of ISLAM, they build 5 bridge stairs representing 5 muslim pillar. and below the stairs is the water fountain where they took their abolution.

1) said no god but allah and muhammad is our prohpet
2) pray 5 times a day
3) go haj if afford
4) fast during Ramadhan
5) must donate to the poor of a certain amount(zakat)

This part of the palace -which has been rebuild but where the real brick is still inside was where the King spent with his wives and maiden...It is to be said he had quite a number of woman and the wives were seperated according to his liking... .

This is like a tower where he would pick the woman for the night.
Frame of the bed another room where he practice spritually and spent for few weeks. a messenger will stop in fornt of the thing we standing and sent his message across. where they store their arms....they work nice with angels. and lastly this is the back gate of the palace.

Which lead us to end of the story ...look out for part 2 and three....heheheh